Strange Moods

I get into strange moods that are both ecstatically happy and terribly painful... I laugh and cry a lot during these times, and my relaxed-state visions get more intense...the experience is powerful and often causes me to meditate extensively on the Cross. There is a part of me that screams out the whole experience is a sign of DISfunction, of mental illness or madness...another part cries out that this is the sanest I'll ever be, that this experience is life properly reflected. Which is true? That, is the only real question.

I'm reminded of this song